I took a minute today to look back at 2015. I have come along way. Those of you who have been reading my blogs over the years have seen me grow first hand. Last year at this time I was weak, in body, mind, and spirit. PTSD controlled me. I was in fear of everything. I apologized for everything, even things out of my control.
This past year I have learned to make myself a priority. I have learned to not depend on others. I have learned to trust myself, believe in myself, and to do for myself. I cannot expect me to ever be a priority in someones life if I am not a priority in my own.
I released a few more novels in 2015, I did some commercials, was heard on some big radio stations, I wrote for a very cool fashion magazine, and I worked not one, but 7 different jobs. I was promoted at one of my jobs and a second promotion into management there is just within reach. I focused on my independence, my freedom, my ability to take control of things I have not been allowed to have control over in decades… things like my finances and my health top that list.
My health… My a1c has hoovered right at 6.0 for a year now, 1 1/2 years ago it was 12.6 I believe. I could have died. My numbers now mean I no longer need insulin. I will always be a diabetic, but I have it under control.
It almost feels like my life its self is under control. I know it is not perfect, and I have many goals still to achieve, but I am getting there, and I am very proud of the steps I have taken to do so.
Being alone does not scare me anymore. Being alone is kind of nice, because the person I am alone with (me) truly loves me. I have never said that before; I have never felt that before.
I won’t compromise anymore. I won’t settle. I finally know my worth. I finally know my value.
2015 has been very good to me, and I have been blessed beyond words. I can hardly wait to see what is in store for 2016 and how I will personally evolve and grow.
I wish you all the happiest of New Years!