Time went by fast. We talked and didn’t even realize how far we had gone and how much we had done until we were home.
We spent the entire time talking. It wasn’t just words exchanged in a polite manner, it was really, really talking and bonding. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful son. He has an amazing heart, with fantastic dreams, and goals.
His life hasn’t been easy. My life hasn’t been easy. Yet we spent a portion of the walk talking about the things we were thankful for. Listening to him truly opened my eyes. He mentioned things like having a pillow, a blanket, a bed…. Things I have taken for granted.
I am faced with many decisions at this crossroads in my life, and I pray that I make the right decisions. I pray for this not only for me, but also for him and his brothers. As a parent, every decision we make good or bad makes an impact on our children.
My grandmother had once said to me, “A child pays the price for the sins of his parent.” I never really understood this statement until I became an adult.
I have tolerated a lot more than any woman would ever tolerate in life or in marriage. I have been to hell and back more times than I can count.
I can continue on this path of uncertainty, allowing others poor decisions and lackadaisical behavior to control and steer me, or I can be the woman I once was. I can be strong, determined, resilient, and I can overcome the chaos that I have allowed myself to be blindly lead into. I take full responsibility for that.
My children are so important to me. I need to take a stand. I need to say no more. I need to be the strong woman that they need to guide them, protect them, and love them.
I am their mother. I am so thankful that I have been given the opportunity to be their mother. I will not let them down; thus, a new chapter of our lives is about to begin, and I am so thankful for that and all of the opportunities that are ahead.